All posts filed under: Thoughts

What’s the point of reporting work place racism?

Recently, I reported an incident of work place racism. My manager then proceeded to tell me all the wrong things. Literally all the things that you should not say!!!!! As expected, nothing really changed, and I started to think about why I even felt the need to report it. After all, it was pretty mild racism. Probably a 3/10 on the racist comment scale. And I don’t think that I’m naive to the circumstances. I know that in any situation I face in life I am prone to hearing racist comments, I know that these instances of workplace racism are extremely ordinary, I know that reporting this to my supervisor is not going to create any sort of change within the system. But I still did it. When you, as an employee, reach out to a supervisor because you’ve experienced some sort of office racism its pretty much just because you need a little validation that you are valued and respected. Most places in the world, I classify in my head as not-safe and I …

What Yellow Peril means to me, right now.

This is a repost from Yellow Peril, an ongoing project/ blog about Asian American narratives that I run with my friend Sue. If you want to submit stories, writing, music, pictures, thoughts to Yellow Peril, email us!   This project has been in the works in my head since about 2014. And now it’s finally real!!! I’m very thankful for a tarot card I drew at work, and to Sue for giving me the final push that I needed (and for also agreeing to be my partner is this very vague and fuzzy project). Yellow peril is a funny phrase to me, but that’s because I view and understand it from a place of privilege and from a context completely separate from its origin. For so long and for so many, yellow peril has been something that is very literal and threatening. Just a lil context, yellow peril was a phrase coined by sociologist Jacques Novikow in the 1890’s. It was rooted in the idea that East Asians, or Orientals as they used to call …

I love new year resolutions. I can’t believe there are anti-resolution people out there.

Most of the time, I need an extra push to make changes in my life that are overdue and I think a new year is one that holds a lot of weight for me. I’ve been feeling like I am becoming someone that gives out more negative energy than positive, someone that finds too much comfort in their phone, someone who feels uncomfortable doing things alone, someone who doesn’t feel comfortable without makeup on, someone who doesn’t practice making things even though they (I) consider themselves (myself) a maker/creator… I mean it just goes on and on. So I’ve created a list. And I don’t think its that daunting or high-commitment because (1) if you skip a day who cares and (2) if something isn’t working for you, you only have to commit for a day. Also, in my head, these are more of potentially beneficial lifestyle adjustments rather than dramatic changes. So, no big deal. We start off by re-centering and de-cluttering  our minds and spaces and then move on to challenges that might make …

THRIVE is the word of the Trump presidency 🌷

This sucks and is so scary and I’ve cried multiple times today. Last night was terrifying, and a huge wake-up call to say the least. Now is not the time to move to Canada. Now is the time to get more involved and more invested in the politics of this country. Now is the time to stand together and hold each other up. Yesterday was proof that white Americans, and especially white men, will do anything and overlook almost everything to stay in power. And I think a lot of Americans (esp. young Americans like me) are really really scared today, as we should be because like, a Republican House and Senate, Trump appointing at least 1 Supreme Court judge, prison stocks jumping after the election, potential deportations… etc. etc. There’s a lot to be scared about. I know it feels like the end of the world, but I am faithful that we will still thrive. Today I was talking to a friend who told me that yesterday was especially hard because many of us …

Summer Update

I’ve found myself stuck in a little bit of a rut recently, feeling very stagnant and not myself. I thought I had a method/techniques get over my lil dead end, but nothing seemed to be working. So instead I made this video of me in a parking lot eating a cheeseburger. I think I’m always putting pressure on myself to be moving forward to be getting better on whatever I’m working on at that time. And while I think thats a nice trait to have I think more than anything it scares me from really getting anything done. And I think thats why I appreciate school and work because those things provide me with realistic projects, goals, and deadlines. I’m working on a project for my internship where I sit down with my friends in their spaces and we talk about gender based issues and violence. It’s not as scary or serious as it sounds, the conversations come pretty easily. I’m not sure what I’m going to call it, but that will be up soon …

Essena Oneill, thank you for reminding me that I can’t leave my happiness up to things I don’t have control over.

(this post is more about attributing your own worth to things outside of you postpones happiness rather than the ‘war on social media’) Since Essena Oneill made that video about social media and deleted all her accounts, I’ve heard a lot of people saying things like: “no shit Instagram isn’t real life” “she was doing it just for attention” ?????!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?! A lot of people really do want to be social media famous. It seems like a fun and glamorous way to support yourself and Essena clearly laid down why this shouldn’t be #goals (here where the social media isn’t real life comes in). Her story was specific to social media, how she built her life around it and attributed her value to how many followers she had, how many likes she got, etc. This concept can ruin a person (Essena talks about how she was depressed, didn’t actually go places and do things, and how she basically lived in this delusional internet world). But in a larger sense, she’s talking about how people often leave their …